I sat on one my back steps this wonderful evening before it started storming, with a lit cigarette in my mouth. As I dragged in heavy smoke into my lungs, I coughed.. *Sigh of relief* . The wind was being too wicked, troubling me with all sorts of sounds. Then, for a moment there was sudden silence, not outside but in the inner me. The loneliness was creeping in...Guilt kicked in as I haven't been replying to any of my friends in about a week. I've been avoiding everyone for reasons unknown, which I don't even want to know either. I'm enjoying this monotonous life where I spend hours and days sitting like a dead man in front of the desktop doing nothing, actually listening to music, watching South park and no doubt writing long posts..to not be posted As I gazed at the evening sky, I could find clouds hover not knowing what destiny has in store for it. Our life seems to be the same, we claim we can turn it around but that ain't a permanent one to which we can adhere. In the backdrop of this fantastic,evening, another feeling strikes my mind. Where are we destined to go after life? Where exactly? Could someone please clear this doubt of mine.. Earlier I had got a response from my brother..He was like, 'enjoy what you've got'.. That's something I always do though. But the triviality of the question is such, it haunts me when I'm alone. It slowly inches up my mind stealing the good moments of my life leaving me in a state called, 'confusion'. Twenty-seven glorious years have already passed by and life just seems to fade away without me knowing the actual reason for having this soul in me. What am I to do with it? Just live? Thats it? lmao! funny life.. hahaha
