'Life is a Gun' by Jay Malinowski on Q TV

Mosquitos must die...

thoughts- I wonder sometimes what the life of an insect must be like, to forever be buzzing around in search of a place to rest or find shelter from humans or a form of weather that is not good for their survival. A large flyswatter perhaps, or a can of raid .

To be hated and shreiked @ by sight alone. to be ran at, threatened to be stepped up and smashed flat if caught. a living war everyday. it must be troubling for their self esteem. Afterall , arent they just trying to survive this world along with the rest of us?

Mosquitos and flies & spiders get it the worst i think. followed in 4th place by bees. Its our human reaction to kill these insects @ sight seen. we are taught from toddlerdom that these insects are bad, and cause harm to us. to be fearful of them and kill them @ once.

Whats my point you might be asking @ this point of the blog, (if youve read this far, that is.) Well, not sure that i have an actual point other than to just put it out there. It must suck. :(

But if you actually look @ a bigger picture of this matter. the fact that we as humans are taught killing since we are old enough to fathom a thought. is just bizzare to me. Does anyone else find this totally redundant & offkilter?

Music& TV- I’ve been reading the Kurt Cobain Journals and listening, falling more in love with this amazing music. I dare say there will be a more in depth post about this is the foreseeable future.

I feel there is a universal sense amongst our generation that everything has been said and done. True. But who cares, it could still be fun to pretend.” - Kurt Cobain Journals.

Breaking Bad is my new addiction. I’m dreading finishing season two (I only have five episodes to GO..



HINDSIGHT IS 20/20. The advice I’d give my teenage self:

Dale, your lack of self-esteem and fear of being yourself, completely and undiluted, means you’re going to be considered a door mat by a lot of people. Which means they’ll walk all over you, treat you like you are spineless and helpless. But you’re not, you’ll see eventually. Until then, if you have to be a door mat, don’t lose sight of your potential to trip people up. Because you’ll do that a lot. See you in your 30s!


I don’t think I am the most over-sensitive person in the world. Criticism, I can deal with it. Especially when you construct the word constructive in front of it. As a human being, I am always going to be doing things others can be critical of. There are too many people on the planet for anyone to be universally liked. It’s a strange fact but no matter how nice you are, there are going to be more people that either don’t like you, or that don’t even know who or what you are, than people who actually like you.

I openly will admit to be over-sensitive in personal instances, nasty and unfounded comments on my character etc. But the thing I am most sensitive about is when certain types and aspects of a friendship whither and die. The moment you realise something that was “important”, like an in joke or similar, no longer matters to the other person is heartbreaking. Maybe not that extreme, but like heart burn. Something that hurts, but won’t ever kill you.


A potentially upsetting thought … I feel like I belong to a generation that no longer sees the relevance of dates. Not the fruit, like going on a date with someone you could potentially like. This is, at least, the way the majority of my friends act. All of my friends that are currently in relationships became involved with their significant others after hooking up with them while drunk. This style of love connection forming has zero appeal to me. Personally, I like a guy to ask me out for coffee and to talk much more than smooshing faces together when you’re too drunk to even feel your face.
I guess I’m just old-fashioned. I’m probably going to die alone


Parting words I just finished watching Six Feet Under. I’ve cried so much this past hour, now I’m watching special features and eating some cheesecake. Haha! I can’t even think of a way to describe this television show. It’s almost hard to consider it just a TV show because it just feels like so much more. God, that’s cheesier than my cheesecake! There aren’t words to describe this show, and I think everyone should watch it - just to fall in love and have your heart broken simultaneously. I’m in love with most of the characters, despite how fucked up they all are. Especially Nate Fisher, whom i see myself in so much.. The series finale was perfect and beautiful, Ive watched the dvds a millions times ...but what can i say.. I’m just rambling, so I’ll shut up.! I’ve also begun watching Breaking bad. So its my new addiction.…

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A bible Rant..

I like to look at Scripture as a trampoline, in that it is the platform that elevates one’s spirituality, but not the elevation itself.
Although the elevation is certainly much more important than the platform, it cannot be achieved without it. Sure, one can still jump without a trampoline, but not to their highest potential.

In much the same way, our “elevation” or goal is to know, love, and glorify the Lord. Although reading the Bible may not be any of these things, it is the platform on which we strive to “elevate” ourselves, or accomplish them.

Unfortunately, the Bible gets a terrible rap these days because of the people who seem to hold it higher than God Himself, but I really feel that we should be careful not to respond to this phenomena by falling into carelessness for God’s Word.

Admittedly, when I want to get to know someone, I don’t ask to read their autobiography, I just spend time with them. But this leads me to the question, is the Bible merely God’s “autobiography”, or is it His living Word?

I mean, just think about this for a second:
With only his voice, the Lord Almighty spoke the universe into existence .
If it is also true that the very words of Scripture are from that very same voice,
SHOULDN’T WE ALL BE DYING TO LISTEN?

Sure, there is always the argument that the early church had no access to the Bible (Duh. It didn’t exist!), but that they had full access to the Holy Spirit. Before I begin to explain where it is I stand on this, let me reassure you that I view the Spirit as of much greater importance than the Word. But if I were to devalue the Word (a written work of the Spirit, mind you) as a means to try to say that I love the Spirit more, wouldn’t this be unfaithful to the Spirit?

If I really loved the Spirit, I would love both It and Its written work.

Another thing I think about is that without the Bible there would be a whole lot more chaos than there is now, even today. Sure, the church is ugly, messy, disgusting, but imagine where she’d be without God’s living Word.

Have you ever read 1 Corinthians 14:26-33?
In this passage, Paul is instructing the church in Corinth on how to properly go about doing church. Things there were getting way out of hand; tons of amazing, miraculous things were going on but were being done in such a way that chaos was constant and unbelievers were just sort of like “What in the heck is going on with these weirdos speaking in tongues and stuff?”

The point I’m trying to make is that these people were trying to do their best and trying to do good and trying to follow Jesus, but this really wasn’t getting them anywhere. They had good intentions, but as we all know, good intentions don’t always pave the road to heaven, so to speak (Romans 7?). Paul addresses their situation in order that “all things be done for building up” of the Church. Much like this situation, we sometimes get carried away thinking that we are totally fine without the “out of date” or “irrelevant” Scriptures, but I feel that this passage in 1 Corinthians is a great and somewhat sobering reminder that GOD HAS SPOKEN AND WE SHALL LISTEN WITH OPEN EARS. :)