I'm still here.

Floating above it all. Out there. It seems i've absorbed all the negativity of the world. Inside me, swirling, no place to release it. Blocked from any joy, sunshine, any feeling of hope.

My eyes closed, i imagine when i open them, it might be different.  It isn't 

My mind feels like a deep dark pit. When i try to process, it echoes. I claw at the sides trying to make my way to the surface, only dirt falls in my face..no matter how much effort, i can't reach the opening.

I am in the world. A guy that sometimes smiles. Taking up a little spot amongst humankind. Moving with no precision.