There is almost nothing like a giant cup of perfectly hot tea!

Its quite rainy this morning, I woke up to the blare of my alarm, which you think one would get used to, but no. I think I'll switch it to awake to music from now on. That cant be good for ones heart.:)

So here i sit drinkin my Green tea.. (made at home today,no coffee today.. shocker i know!). But i decided to make breakfast, so put on the kettle while i was at it. Msnbc's Morning Joe in the background, catching me up on the regurgitated news of the week. I do find Mika Brzezinski very enjoyable.

I find as i get older, well not that I wasnt always this way...but i find im loving a daily routine immensely. Does this mean I'm getting set in my ways? I love knowing what my next step of the day will be.

Ive once again been trying to do the whole "dating" thing. It really is such a over-rated ordeal. Sure, we all would like to have someone special in our lives. but to what cost, i ask you.:) Dating is like pulling teeth for an introverted person such as myself, a grueling joust of sorts, to see who speaks first, to see who ends the whole conversation for good. a race to finish what took only a few seconds to arrange. So what was the point exzactly?

When my brain doesnt shut down, when i'd rather spend the time doing something other than what i was doing at present time. I constantly joke about being Asexual or being a monk or remaining celibate for the rest of my days. But when does the laughter end, and where does the truth begin?

My Family...Oh My family. I have such a love/hate relationship with half of them at any given time. I havent spoken to my sister in over a week, and dont think I will anytime soon. I feel such guilt & dont like not being in contact...but I feel i must.

My 17 year old neice is about to have a baby any day, and my fears for her and the life shes chosen to recieve and be blessed with and the life shes chosen to give up, troubles me greatly. This child isnt ready to raise a child. I know people in their late 30 who arent ready for a child!!...so how is this baby going to teach, provide and nurture another living soul.

Once again, I take on the worries for those who seem to have none or choose to live in denial about them. :)

A few songs you should check out.

Maniac- Die Rad

Sidewalk Prophets- you love me anyways

Pink Martini- Que Sera Sera

Kris Allen- Vision of love